Wednesday, November 25, 2015

wait patiently

psalm 40:1-2
i waited patiently for the Lord
He turned to me and heard my cry
He lifted me out of the slimy pit
out of the mud and mire 
He set my feet on a rock
and gave me a firm place to stand

this verse keeps coming back to me
it has recently been the verse of the day on my bible app .. it has been part of my daily bible study that comes to my email (twice!)
do you think God is trying to tell me something??

look at your baby and delight in my timing
I know best

i know God .. i am trying .. and i am failing miserably <ha!>
my head knows that i want to wait for the Lord. that He knows what my family looks like in its completion. He knows who the littlest's siblings will be and when we will get to meet them

my heart on the other hand ..
it has a hard time
my heart is open and ready for that baby
my heart is raw and vulnerable
my heart is anxious and feels doubtful and sad

how can i align my head and my heart??
i know the right answer .. give it to God .. focus on His word .. wait patiently for Him .. pray! pray! pray! .. i am trying .. admittedly it is really hard!!

wait patiently for the Lord
He turned to me and heard my cry
He lifted me out of the slimy pit
out of the mud and mire 
He set my feet on a rock
and gave me a firm place to stand
psalm 40:1-2

happy wednesday!!

Wednesday, November 18, 2015

to write or not to write

admittedly .. i waiver back and forth all of the time about whether or not to continue writing this blog of mine

now that i have the littlest .. this is most often not where i choose to spend my time
it used to be so easy to take outfit pictures on the regular and write multiple blog posts a week
but now .. during my down time i am sitting in the middle of my living room floor playing with toys and laughing as my one year old dances around me .. or i am relaxing on the couch enjoying dinner and some trashy tv with RT
they are where i want to invest my time
and while writing a post takes just a few short minutes .. for some reason it is no longer a priority for me

also .. since having the littlest .. i struggle with how much of my family i am sharing with the world
on one hand .. i love having a place to celebrate our lives and what we are doing .. whether that be the happy times or the harder times
it is great to have a place for family and friends to keep up with us and what we are doing
on the other hand .. i have this protective momma bear side that wants to shelter us and our lives

sometimes this blog is therapeutic for me
this is where i come to lay my feeling on the line
it helps me to truly identify what i am going through and work it out if i can write it down

i break through my barriers of insecurity by making myself vulnerable to my readers
this is who i am
this is what i do
this is my family
this is what i wear
this is how i feel
this is me
the good the bad and the ugly
for all to read

for today i press on and this continues to be a safe place for me
no matter if i write one post per day or one post per month

thank you for continuing to read and following along in this life of mine!!
happy wednesday!!

Tuesday, November 3, 2015

truth be told

truth be told .. it was something like 75 degrees here yesterday
admittedly not the most appropriate weather for velvet pants 
but .. in my defense .. it is november for goodness sake
someone must have forgotten to tell texas 

anyway .. i am considering moving into these pants on a permanent basis
they are stretchy and comfortable and basically feel like comfy sweats and yet they look super cute and way more dressed that sweats
in my opinion that makes them the most perfect pants that ever existed 
especially for those of us that work at preschool and have babies at home

happy tuesday!!