on the road again

dress: mara hoffman
shoes: dolce vita

i heard a song called strong enough by matthew west on my way home yesterday and the lyrics really portray how i am feeling as the start date of our next i word cycle approaches. i have been on two different pills for the past couple of weeks but my shots and all of that starts monday

so .. where am i as far as heart and mind going into this next cycle??

i feel completely different

i almost don't feel at all which is kind of weird

if i am being honest .. i don't think it is going to work

knowing that we had a 70+% chance of getting pregnant last time with two perfect looking embryos and we still didn't get pregnant .. i just think maybe we aren't meant to have biological children

RT really wants to try this again at least one more time though so here we go :)

wish us luck!!

you must think i'm strong to give me what i'm going through 

well forgive me if i'm wrong but this looks like more than i can do on my own

maybe that's the point .. to reach the point of giving up

cause when i'm finally at rock bottom that's when i start looking up and reaching out

cause i'm broken down to nothing but i'm still holding on to the one thing 

you are GOD and you are strong when i am weak

i can do all things through CHRIST who gives me strength and i don't have to be strong enough

i know i'm not strong enough to be everything i'm supposed to be

i give up .. i'm not strong enough

hands of mercy won't you cover me

LORD right now i'm asking you to be strong enough for the both of us

--matthew west