twenty days

top: madison marcus
pants: asos
shoes: steve madden

let's be honest .. i have been counting down to B's due date for an embarrassingly long time now but we are down to low numbers .. exactly twenty days from today!!

my mom and i are going to head to her a little bit early so that i can spend some more time with her before the baby comes so really my countdown to seeing B is less than twenty days

isn't that crazy?!?

we have been struggling to start our family for a really long time and now we are twenty days from holding our little girl
twenty days from snuggling her close
twenty days from kissing her cheeks {that i hope are perfect and full just like B's}
twenty days from seeing what she looks like
twenty days from changing diapers and clothes and feeding and rocking her
twenty days from being mommy and daddy

woohoo!!
i am excited!!

happy tuesday!!

dog models

sometimes when it is sunny while we are taking blog photos I get accidental mad face .. sorry :(

yesterday RT and i had the day off together. we spent the day running errands and what not so this comfy casual outfit was just the ticket. this dream tank by michael stars is my new favorite t .. the love skirt you have seen before .. it is a tried and true favorite along with my acid washed denim jacket and chucks .. topped off with these new sunnies from free people that RT says make me look like john lennon .. i'm taking it as a compliment {ha!}

my dogs are models .. i thought you would appreciate their cuteness :)

happy weekend!!

CB my love

warning!! lots and lots of crazy cuteness below!!

we are back from the colorful colorado and i know you were maybe thinking i would never return to this blog but alas here i am :)

no last thursday but the thursday before .. RT picked me up from the hoop at six pm and we started the long trek to trinidad, co. my brother and his family, my sister and her family and RT and i all left home at different times so we decided to stay in the same place that night so that we could get up and caravan the last few hours into CB together

RT and i were the last to arrive at our night time destination pulling in at about one am. i won't even pretend like it was a tough drive/long night or any of that jazz because my husband is a freaking rock star and he drove the whole way while i faded in and out of sleep .. he is good to me :)

the next morning we got up early and got on the road and we were in CB by mid day. it was perfect because we got to drive the prettiest part of the drive during the day and then we had plenty of time to get unpacked and settled that afternoon before dinner

the next two days were ski days. there was tons of fresh snow on the ground and the skiing was absolutely unbeleivable!! i am awesome and took zero skiing pictures {yea for me .. not}. all i have is a pretty great video of janey emery and deuce skiing like little pros but i can't for the life of me figure out how to upload a video on here .. it is not for a lack of trying i promise!!

on the third day we went sledding and the kids had a blast! it is more and more fun every year because the bigger they get the more into it they are .. emery's face in is first pictures might just make it the best picture of the whole trip right?!?

after some sledding the two big girls tried ice skating for the first time. i think the movie frozen and then two weeks of the olympics might have made it look easier than it actually was but they had fun and that was all that mattered :) my brother went as well and he was {not surprisingly} really good first step out onto the ice .. but the girls had to work a little harder. they did though and the more they were on the ice the more confident they got and it was so fun to watch them try to master yet another fun activity :)

their brothers watched enthusiastically {ha!}

i will leave you with the one cute picture taken of RT and i on the vacay

CB .. i love you more and more every visit .. until next time!!

happy tuesday!!

a downstairs photo bomb

i have been promising an update on our house for a while now so i thought i would deliver {at least halfway} today. the upstairs is still hugely unfinished as far as decorating so i will post that at a later date. but for today you have the downstairs :)

 

walking into the house you walk through a small entry that just holds a closet .. our dog kennels .. and some counter space with cabinets above

 

from there you walk through the dining area into the kitchen

we mounted this humdingers sign on a sliding door and behind it is our laundry room

walking from the kitchen you again pass through the dining area {thank you captain obvious ha!} and head into the living room

 

don't be alarmed .. we just really love color and pattern :)

this is the nursery and i am very proud of the fact that my mom dad RT and i made these curtains. we just taped stripes off on drop cloth from the hardware store and painted them black. then my dad built wood valances and we stapled the triangle cute peices to that and voila .. diy at its finest :)

 

we still have to get a changing table and unpack the boxes that are hiding in the closet in the nursery but other than that we are ready to bring home baby girl!!

this bathroom was existing

 

we just updated the hardware and put in new lighting a new mirror and fresh paint

these are the doors leading into our master closet which is also the hallway into our bedroom

 

the door leading into our master bathroom matches except it is a single standard sized door instead of the smaller french doors

this is our closet .. in the cabinetry on the left we have folded clothes and shoes and behind the mirrored doors on the right is all of our hanging clothes

 

at the end closest to bedroom on the left is my vanity but i am still waiting on lighting and a mirror for that space so i didnt picture it :)

please excuse the piles on the chaise at the end of the bed but we are leaving town today and that is all our stuff {ha!}

and last but not least .. our master bath .. which i am obsessed with .. i mean i am obsessed with the whole house but i feel like we did a great job making a smallish space into a really great master bath

 

the space is long and skinny so walking in you have the counter with double sinks on the right leading toward the bath/shower area that is all enclosed together with shower heads on either wall

we are loving every second of living in the new house!!

 

happy thursday!!

 

 

a letter

dress: rachel pally

jacket: mcginn

shoes: steve madden

 

i want to write a letter to B

as her due date nears it feels important to me to let her know all of the emotions swirling around inside me. i am so much better at saying all that i want and mean to say if i write it down instead of trying to say it in person. maybe that's impersonal but for me it is most important to be honest and thorough

especially with this

so i want to write her a letter but every time i open up pages on my ipad i go blank

how do i fully covey to her how much i adore her
how much i adore her baby girl
how desperately i want to be her baby's mom
how sharing that title with her would be my greatest honor
how strong and brave and selfless she is
how i feel like i have been on this crazy twisted journey that ultimately lead me to her .. and that is more perfect than anything else
how i will think of and cherish and pray for her everyday for the rest of my life
how she is changing everything for me .. for us .. in the most incredible way
how .. even though i will never be able to truly understand .. i know this is painful for her .. and i appreciate her willingness to live through the pain to do what she feels is best
how i know the depth of her love for her baby

i mean i could go on and on forever
but when i try to write it down
put it together in a letter
it feels inadequate
my words are inadequate

i have just a few short weeks to get this letter completed so hopefully i can find a way

happy tuesday!!